Wet and not so wild MONDAY

So had the hardest time going to bed last night. My legs were killing me and I just couldn't get to sleep so I stayed awake watching movies. This morning was a late start but OK because I was tired. I still am sorry to say that I have not done my best at my mission. What the heck is wrong with me? Why am I still digging a hole deeper? I am broke yes but I got a little for some groceries but do I go...NO...I don't. Why, well because there are things that I have at the house that are not that good but that are already bought. I had to cancel my gym membership because don't know if will be able to pay next time. Now I know this should not stop me because I could always make better choices at eating and I could always workout outside or at home. I know I can do this. I was watching biggest loser last night when I was having a hard time sleeping and every single person said the one reason why they ate fast food was because....IT WAS EASY AND CONVENIENT...and that is exactly how I feel. They also showed a person how much money they would be spending on medical in the long run if they kept eating the way they did and it was over 3 million dollars. R U KIDDING ME. Is this true? Oh man what I could do even over time with that 3 mill. That is why I need to do this. I have great ideas and even putting them down on paper on how I can help myself out and maybe help others out but am I following my own thoughts...again NO..... But I need to. I got to keep saying this is not going to be easy but I have to do it. I will get it done. I need to get it done. I have to take my first step again NOW.
Chao for now
Vanessa